A Change of Scenery

I have been so busy with things lately that I am just now getting back on here. I have recently just moved back in with my Mom and the moving has been a pain but, as long as I keep taking it slow it will work out best in the long run. Work has not been much help either in the time to do things department. They have me working two back to back 12 hour shifts on the weekends (the money is good but, ugh..) I am having a hard time dealing with the transition there, not with the people but, I find myself kind of afraid to make the switch. I think it has something to do with the fact that I have so many limitations with what I can do now, such as I can't wear earrings (even studs) or paint my nails (my friends tell me I am such a girl; I don't know what they are talking about.) that I have gotten used to it all. This does not seem like a whole bunch but, I am full time outside of work, it is just weird.

My life at home has taken a turn for the best; my Mom is finally starting to accept me for just who I am. While I think it will still be a while before she can stop calling me by my old name, she has though started to just be helpful in other areas. Usually, just telling me I look good, or giving me pointers on things but, she does not flinch anymore when I ask her about other things, like how do I sound (still working on the voice, whew.. it's hard).

Outside of home and work has been absolutely amazing and overwhelming at times. I have been going to "drink and draw" at a local cafe downtown once every week, and while I am there I feel like I am in an episode of Cheers with everyone yelling out "Lyndsey" when I walk in the room. The amount of friends I have been making is just astonishing. and the amount of events or get-togethers is non-stop. I have never been this active in my entire life, and I hope it does not stop!

On a more personal note, I am reaching my eighth month on HRT and the changes are really apparent. I find myself walking just a little bit differently now along with some noticable curves. I am starting to really get a waist and my hips are starting to come in. In fact, I went to target yesterday with a friend and tried on some jeans; they fit perfectly! Emotionally, I have started to really look at guys in a different way than I used too, bordering on attraction. I knew that it was possible that I might begin to change in that area, and there is nothing wrong with it but, it is an odd sensation, given that I have only liked girls up to this point in my life.

Next week is my next doctor's appointment; it is a new doctor that I was recommended to when at my last appointment. The office that I supposed to see her at is a bit further away than I would like but, they will be better suited to help me with my medication and transition. With the extra money I will be getting each month, I am hoping I can start to really save up for any future surgeries.

Anyways, I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend; until next time!

Lyndsey