Restrooms and Work

Okay, so it has been a real long time since I updated anything, but there are new measurements and pictures in both the gallery and transition pages.

So, day before yesterday was an awesome day! I went to group with one of my friends and while there, I was told I am making very good progress on my voice which made me very happy. Mostly because I was not hearing it from just one person, but many. While I was there, one topic we talked about was the use of public restrooms. Now recently, Colorado passed a new law allowing anyone to use whatever restroom that they associate themselves with at the time. Do to the news, I used the women's restroom for the first time! The idea of using a restroom is not all that big, but for a transgendered person it is really big. I no longer have to go to the mens restroom looking as a woman and getting stares saying, "why the hell are they in here".

The next day was fun also, as I went to a site downtown that I use to work at. Some of my old colleagues were there as well and once again that meant coming out to people. It went just fine though, did not have any issues and everyone was happy for me. After the meeting was a different story. I stopped in at my work just to say hi, and let them know I did go to the meeting. Upon entering the building, my boss was there and his first words were "Don't tell me you wore that to the meeting?", to which I replied "Yes, I did". My boss then proceeded to tell me that it was supposed to be business casual or uniforms. I had to look at myself and then him, to which I replied, "This is business casual". I could not believe he had said those things. I have never had such a jackass of a boss before, and I have had some big ones. Anyways, so I plan on letting someone know about everything sometime next week. All in all, I have had a couple of really good days.

Nothing New...

I am sorry I have not been on for a while. It has been a rather busy month. Mostly been dealing with my condo as of late, but it looks like that will be over here real soon. I am supposed to go and clean it out over the next couple of days. Fun, Fun. Other than that, lets see I ended up dropping $170 on clothes with my friend Samantha over at the store the other day, and I must say it was soo, much fun. :)  I also just started Yoga classes with her on Thursdays, and it was actually pretty entertaining. It hurt a little bit, but if anything it reminded me of the time I took Tai Chi during college. So, I hoping to do that at least once a week. On another note, I also want to start swimming laps at the local pool with my other friend Amy. Problem is, I need a new swim suit. I was all excited to start up again, when it dawned on me that I only have my old swim trunks from before transitioning. :P Well, I know what I will be getting on my next paycheck.

Things have really been picking up with my role-playing game that I have been trying to make over the past few years. Some of the people at Drink and Draw have been really excited to get involved in the making of the game, that we are going to be doing a mock session on Tuesday. Just enough to work out some rules and maybe come up with more. If any of you are interested in knowing more about it, just post a comment and I can try and fill in some answers. Right now, we are calling it the Wheel System, but it might change to the Threat System due to the name being to close to others out there.

Anyways, I plan on posting some updates on my transitioning within the next week or two. Everyone have a wonderful day!

Look'n Good

I had my doctor's appointment on Tuesday and I thought it was going to be a bad day. It started by me getting the wrong directions and driving seven miles further out of my way than what I was supposed too. Then, to top it all off, by the time I arrived at the office I was going to have to reschedule. Luckily, the person after me canceled and I was able to be seen.

The appointment itself went great. The doctor was very nice, knew what she was talking about, and was thorough. After the physical she asked if I had ever taken any hormones before starting my transition (in which I had not, for those wondering), because I was further along than what a person normally would be for only eight months. It made me feel very good hearing that; I had been having lots of thoughts about a week before. Mostly just, am I supposed to be where I am, am I behind or ahead? I was really unsure about where I stood and it was depressing.

Today I ended up going and getting more electrolysis done, for I was finally able to save up some money. I had scheduled for three hours, but ended up only going for two. Mostly, because my chin could not handle anymore (it was just too swollen). The good news is that the person doing the electrolosys nearly cleared my entire chin, so next time I should only have to have a short appointment to get the rest. Of course, that does not include my upper lip, which is to be very painful (the things we go through to look pretty). I will probably need a shot of Novacaine in order to get it done.

A Change of Scenery

I have been so busy with things lately that I am just now getting back on here. I have recently just moved back in with my Mom and the moving has been a pain but, as long as I keep taking it slow it will work out best in the long run. Work has not been much help either in the time to do things department. They have me working two back to back 12 hour shifts on the weekends (the money is good but, ugh..) I am having a hard time dealing with the transition there, not with the people but, I find myself kind of afraid to make the switch. I think it has something to do with the fact that I have so many limitations with what I can do now, such as I can't wear earrings (even studs) or paint my nails (my friends tell me I am such a girl; I don't know what they are talking about.) that I have gotten used to it all. This does not seem like a whole bunch but, I am full time outside of work, it is just weird.

My life at home has taken a turn for the best; my Mom is finally starting to accept me for just who I am. While I think it will still be a while before she can stop calling me by my old name, she has though started to just be helpful in other areas. Usually, just telling me I look good, or giving me pointers on things but, she does not flinch anymore when I ask her about other things, like how do I sound (still working on the voice, whew.. it's hard).

Outside of home and work has been absolutely amazing and overwhelming at times. I have been going to "drink and draw" at a local cafe downtown once every week, and while I am there I feel like I am in an episode of Cheers with everyone yelling out "Lyndsey" when I walk in the room. The amount of friends I have been making is just astonishing. and the amount of events or get-togethers is non-stop. I have never been this active in my entire life, and I hope it does not stop!

On a more personal note, I am reaching my eighth month on HRT and the changes are really apparent. I find myself walking just a little bit differently now along with some noticable curves. I am starting to really get a waist and my hips are starting to come in. In fact, I went to target yesterday with a friend and tried on some jeans; they fit perfectly! Emotionally, I have started to really look at guys in a different way than I used too, bordering on attraction. I knew that it was possible that I might begin to change in that area, and there is nothing wrong with it but, it is an odd sensation, given that I have only liked girls up to this point in my life.

Next week is my next doctor's appointment; it is a new doctor that I was recommended to when at my last appointment. The office that I supposed to see her at is a bit further away than I would like but, they will be better suited to help me with my medication and transition. With the extra money I will be getting each month, I am hoping I can start to really save up for any future surgeries.

Anyways, I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend; until next time!

Lyndsey

Awesome News!

So, I talked with my one of my bosses today and the meeting went wonderfully. I've known him for about 4 years now and when I told him today that I was transitioning he just listened and then said thank you for telling him, because he knew how hard it is to come out to people and the fact I told him made him feel good. He also said that "Anything I can do, let me know. I want to help a friend out anyway I can". It really made my day to hear that; it also means that I won't have any trouble with work anymore. Besides the fact that the law and company policies prohibit any from happening, he will just make sure things work out. The best part of talking with him was he said he is still looking for a position to open up for a supervisor position, and he wants me to have it! In the mean time he is going to see about getting me a small raise to start helping me with the bills.

I cannot address strongly enough how much it means to have people there to help you along. It is hard to tell them sometimes, but find those few people who are open-minded first, let them help you build a wall of confidence around yourself so that when you need to deal with people who might have a problem, they will help. There is always someone out there willing to help.

Well, Here we go.

Today I am going to be talking with one of my upper echelon bosses at work. The good news is I have known him for a few years now, since he and I came from another security company together. One of my friends who is going through things similar to my own has talked to him in the past and he had no problems. So, that is the good news; bad news is I have been sick all night last night and am dreading staying up late to talk to him; the bed is calling to me. : P

It needs to be done though; if I talk to him, I can begin to figure out what I need to do to make the switch over at work. I am reaching close to 8 months now and I think I want to make the final jump to Lyndsey by the time my 1 year mark hits. After that, I can focus on the more expensive parts of transition. Namely: surgery.  I have been thinking of getting an Orchiectomy to lower the amount of testosterone blockers I need. While my health is good (other than being sick right now), it will also cut down on some of my risks from medications.

Anyways, until next time,
Thanks to everyone who has been reading.

So, the Holidays are Finally Over

I am sorry I have not been posting very much recently, but tis the season to get nothing done. Thank you for finally being over. All and all, the past couple of weeks have been good; just steady progression. I did however have to stop going to my meetings over at the GIC for the time being, as I was coming home from a friends house and someone forced me on to the median screwing up my front driver's wheel. So, until that is fixed, I am stranded, mostly. I have been lucky enough to get to work and some friends places via Light rail and bus, but it is expensive! I have though been going to a cafe in downtown Denver with some friends for a thing they are calling "Drink and Draw". Just a place to hang out and have a coffee or hot chocolate while drawing. There have been so many people and I have been learning so much.
I should have a new set of measurements and pics up within the week, plus I am finally putting up some links to other sites. Yay!

I hope things are going well for everyone!